ARTIST | Cassia Brown
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Dawn |
| Posted: 05/15/08 19:09:28 | Member: (GodsDelight) | Tag: Poem |
| I awake. In that darkest hour toward dawn, the bark of a distant dog echoes through the dewy air. It pauses. There is stillness as it waits. It calls out again; the very moisture acts as messenger to the silence as it hastens the call to its destination. I listen. The haunting melody of a mourning dove croons, yearning for the approach of the morn as the sky turns indigo, to azure, to pale pearly blue. It is rewarded as the world stirs. |
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Escape From Addiction |
| Posted: 05/13/08 18:43:18 | Member: (GodsDelight) | Tag: addiction, christianity,discovery,teens, |
| I never realized that pescripton drugs were not the only consumer products that were addictive, and I never realized the helpless, vullnerable feeling addiction could give someone until it happened to me. And all the while the silent killer was refinedsugar! 2002 had been an extremely traumatic year for me. My mother had been seriously ill for a number of years and my sister and I spent what seemed endless days and nights nursing her back to health. She would be up for a while then down again all too soon. I was also experiencing problems of my own at the time. I didn't have much of a social life because I had so many obligations, adn there was no one I could really depend on to do important things for me. I always worlked very hard and had a lot of responsibility. Whenever I was under severe pressure I sought comfort by eating foods high in sugar. My sugar intake always brought instant gratification. My body would relax as the 'placebo' took effect. Before dinner, I would 'snack' on cookies and cake, after dinner, it was nothing for me to eat half a packe of cookes, two bowls of cereal, a bowl of ice cream, a slice of cake and two slices of pie. The more sugar I ate, the more I wanted to eat. MIraculously, I never became over weight. Very soon it got to the point where a sickening odor filled my mouth every time I exhaled. There were times when I made myself ill because of the amount of sugar I consumed. Diabetes ran inmy family, so instinctively, I knew I was headed for trouble. I would fly into a panic adn read as many pamphlets adn articles about diabetes as possible, trying to mentally barricade myself for the worst. I never sought a doctor's opinion, fearing wha tthe result might be. A few weeks would run successfully with out my eating too many sweets, but sooner or later soem stressful situation would come up and I would plunge back into the same unhealthy routine. I prayed and asked God for strength and began a campaign of one-sweet-a-day, which was what god allowed me, never dreaming how dependent I was on sweets until I actually had to cut down. Those three months were a nightmare! My mother and sister had gone away to the U.S. for my mother's surgery, so their hands were full; it was God and I against the sugar demon. I was irritable and touchy, and could barely concentrate on anything without there being a major strain in the back of my mind. On the job, I worked feverishly to keep my mind off the attackes that hit at inconvenient moments, counting out the hours until my 'relief' sweet for the day. My appetite was insatiable! I ate ravenouslly, trying to satisfy the cravings. There were times when I would break down and cry uncontrollably asking god why this was happening to me, and what I had done to deserve it. Oddly enough, when the attacks got too bad, the only things that satisfied my cravings were beef, or french-fries, but unfortunately they were not always available. In February of 2003, God won the battle. I had passed the critical point and was able to eat sweet foods like everyone else after gaining control of the sugar issue. I reiterate that I never went for an official check up, but according to my feelings and appearance, I knew my body had arrived to some pointof equilibrium and I was stable enough to continue my life normally without constantly thinking about the next sugar break. Those months were a learning process for me. Looking in perspective, I will admit that the experience was not with out its pros. My ordeal brought to mind the scripture, "Thou shalt have no other Gods before Me." I was extremely prolific and reflected deeply on life's meaning adn values. I recorded my range of emotions in stages and placed them in the form of poems and prose. My tolerance for the shortcomings of my fellow man was immeasurable. Understanding how easy it was to slip into life threatening situations with out being cognizant of their full danger gaveme new insight on other facets of life. These days, I try to plan around stressful situations as best as I can. Whenever I am taken off guard by a trying situation, I formulate in my mind some interesting plan, or fun activity to partake in besides eating, and if I do eat something sweet, I opt for dried fruit, or fresh fruit, or simply make my own desserts with blond sugar. It was by the strength of God that I made up my mind I would not be a slave to any emotion, or desire that would bring me down. Now I am forward looking and eager for spiritual challenges and with the guidance of God, I know I can do it. http://happy4life.wordpress.com/2008/03/25/reading-these-books-could-save-your-life/ |
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Teens, It's Time You Found Out |
| Posted: 05/09/08 16:08:26 | Member: (GodsDelight) | Tag: teens, christianity |
| First off, I want you to know that this site is for you as well as Adults. Secondly, there is something that you should know that many adults don't know; it's this: according to Jewish law, a male or female is accountable as an adult from the age of 12. The reason I am saying this is because many people talk about teens being responsible, but don’t take the time to train them to be responsible. The other day I was in a high school. For what I saw go on in there it gave me flashbacks. Teachers were getting down on students for weaves, short skirts, and one poor unfortunate boy missed and showed up out of uniform to bring some work to a teacher in a folder. He wasn't in school mind you, he just came to bring work. He was lectured for it. Now I know that young people are supposed to have respect for their elders, but why so intense on the skirt/hair/uniform issue and knives are still showing up in school? Shouldn't they pay more attention to that? Many of you teens have to contend with school, home, jobs and other issues and have pressuring issues that are just as serious as adults. It happened to me. My adult responsibilities began when I was 7. Sometimes I feel like I haven't caught up yet. It's time to stop the cycle! I know your parents care for you, but not every teens life situation is all 'sweetness!' A lot of adults tell you to it’s going to be alright and hold on, but hold on to what? It's good to give advice, but you need answers! I want you to have the chance to 'catch up' during these years so you don't have to wait until you grow up to be free. Believe me, a lot of people will treat you poorly now that you are young and be a total suck up if you happen to break in to the prestige clique when you get older. When I was in school, I had teachers who were the good, the bad and the ugly. Thankfully many were in the good category. How did I survive? I was a Christian and now matter how bad I felt being left out of things as a teen, I never…. ever let anyone tell me what to think, who to believe in, or shake my faith in God. That was back in the day. Unless you die young (God forbid!) the future must and will come up and you have the power in God to control it! Doing witchcraft, having sex, beating someone up because they did, or said some thing you don't like, or selling drugs is not the answer! Even if an adult suggests these things to you it-is-still-wrong! Doing those things I mentioned above won’t make you feel better if your mother has two boyfriend, it won't clear things up if you don't have enough to eat at home, doing these things won't help if you have a father who isn't a father. Let's be real! Some grown-ups lie, and do wrong, but that's because they were lied to or treated badly when they were young! Remember that they are human too! This site is all about helping you teens who are living the double life of the child/adult. You need answers and you are going to get them. Tell me the truth; would you be so quick to sleep with some one if you weren't pressured to do it, or if things were nicer at home? no, you would not! I am here to give you the same options that I give adults. It's like I tell people, I can give you the advice, but I can't sit around and babysit you until you do what you should. So what will it be? Are you ready to take on the challenge of the adult world even though you are not of age? Face it! You already have the stressful issues; now you will have some one like me to help guide you and give you a way out! Going to church is a good way to get become spiritual, but it is not enough. There are things you can do in a group, or by yourself. Search this site and you will see what I mean. It’s like God told me, obey Him and keep his commandments, seeks His face and get to know Him. God told me this is the only way to stay out of 'dummie's retreat'! This is where too many adults lose out, so this is where you come in. Get out of dummies retreat and unlock the secrets of life that God has to offer! Links to real stories: The Age http://happy4life.wordpress.com/2008/02/06/the-age/ Article The Joy and Pain of MARIO http://www.mario2u.com/blog/joy-and-pain-mario In Tune Wtih Freedom http://myplay.com/node/271109 Addiction, http://myplay.com/node/271108 |
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